The Lord Goes Before You

Chemo #2 was completed last Thursday. The nausea was relentless through Sunday yet I clung to God’s promise that he was with me and would never forsake me. Deuteronomy 31:8 ESV – It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” I remind myself that not only is God with me but he goes Before me. He is right there in my chemo seat waiting to hold my hand. He is waiting to hold me through the nauseous nights. I am never alone! What a glorious feeling that is. This promise sustained me through the sleepless nights. Then, Monday came. I started feeling a little better and reminded myself that “This too shall pass”. Last night I was finally able to rest for 4 hours and found myself eager to awake this morning. I had a glorious song in my heart – Stand in Your Love by Bethel Music & Josh Baldwin. I found a quiet corner so not to wake anyone and My soul was uplifted, I danced around a little, I praised, I sang – it was glorious. I then spent 3 wonderful hours in God’s word. I haven’t had the mental capacity to even read for more than 10 minutes since this all began. I am so thankful to the Lord for filling my body, mind, and spirit this morning. This, along with the love of my family will sustain me as I make the trek to the city for another appointment today. I am thankful to God for each step of this journey and more grateful to him for the most difficult times. For I know that he goes Before me and is with me. I also know that in each and every moment of my weakness – he is made stronger. 2 Corinthians 12:9-11 NIV – But he said to me, “my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest in me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.