I haven’t wrote as much as I would have liked to. Three trips a week that lasted all day with a 3 hour round trip has me quite exhausted. Today I am reflecting on my journey thus far. In my last post I had been itching for 3 weeks. Well, three weeks turned into 3 1/2 months of an unbearable, torturous and intolerable rash. It turns out – I am violently allergic to chemo. For 3 months I have been covered in a head to toe Beyond itchy rash/hives. I couldn’t sleep, couldn’t get a break from it, and was miserable. I told my doctor it would have felt better to jump in battery acid. I didn’t know how I was going to get through the torture. I repeatedly read Job and remembered his suffering and strength. I cried to the Lord for healing and begged him for mercy but it didn’t come in my time but in his time. I leaned on the Lord every minute of every day to get through. I grew closer to God and am thankful for the suffering as I learned to rely on him more. In suffering-I found great joy in the Lord and his presence. I am not 100% itch free but SO much better. Now I know that if God can carry me through 3 1/2 months of torture, he will carry me through anything. I can rejoice in my sufferings and thank God for his perfect wisdom and endless love!

Romans 5:3-5 

More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.