What I learned from Mom

I will never forget the day. It is permanently etched into my memory. I sat at the feet of my 46 year old mom as she told my sister, my 5 month old son, my husband, and my father, that her Cancer had rapidly spread. The next words that she said to me changed my life forever. “You know how much I love you. I always thought that I would be here to see you all grow and to spoil my grandson. Yet, my father has called me home. What heaven has waiting for me is wonderful. As much as I love you all, I have something incredibly unimaginable waiting for me. I am at peace and I know that the Lord will be here soon to take me home.” In that moment, unbelievably, I found Perfect Peace. I knew that my mom had believed that if it was God’s will to heal her she would be. I had never met anyone with more faith in that. She prayed, she studied, she pleaded with her father – just as Jesus did. I knew that if anyone could “believe enough” to be healed from Cancer, it was her. In that moment, I realized that her Faith was complete. The Lord had given her Perfect Peace and she knew what wonders were to come. This was the greatest legacy that she could leave for her family. Her Strength, Her Peace, Her Faith. She passed away just days later. I was amazed at the peace that I had in it all. It was just 2 days before Thanksgiving. Family and Friends surrounded us and fed us that year. When Christmas came around, there were presents for all of us nestled under the tree. The gift tags, in my mom’s handwriting. I was not surprised at her forethought. When I opened mine, it was a Bible. My most treasured gift which has set me on my path. I had always believed in the Lord but did not have a personal relationship with him. When I opened the cover and dove in, True Life began for me and I have never looked back. Little did my mother know that 21 years ago, she was preparing me for the words that I would hear, “You Have Breast Cancer”. I am the same age that my mom was, when she was initially diagnosed. My mom’s gift of peace, understanding, and knowledge is leading me on my new Cancer Journey and I know that FAITH is Bigger than fear.